The Miracle of Embodiment

 By Novice Jordana Lazarević

What is a Miracle really? The definition of a miracle in The Course of Miracles is a shift in perception from Fear to Love. Miracles are our birthright but there has to be a purification first.

When I was 22 years old, I felt the hand of God swoop me up and remove me from my then, current situation. The invitation came from a girl I barely knew who invited me to go traveling around the world with her. “Please come, there is no one else I would rather go with,” Debbie would say.

We are formed by the Landscape we grow up in, and mine was dangerous. Both of my parents were children affected by War. Both of their fathers were in the War. My parents were both abused and abandoned as children and they created an atmosphere of War in the house that I spent in, as a child. I learned to betray myself and became a caretaking parent when I was just a child. My worth got wrapped up in how much I gave. My childhood became a place where everyone else's needs were centralized. I played the role of my mother’s partner and listened to her vent the problems of a highly troubled marriage. I became her emotional support, protector, and caretaker.

During my travels, I took a scuba diving boat trip to the Great Barrier Reef. On this particular day, it was a daytime dive in the most magnificent reef. It was a day like no other; I swam through rainbow-colored coral tunnels and played with chasing giant turtles, schools of multicolored fish, and dolphins. Then suddenly, I looked up and saw a tunnel of luminous light and then completely unexpectedly I had a flash of a vision that happened when I was 2 yrs old. I got sick a lot as a child and one incident was when I had pneumonia. I was playing and then I stopped breathing. I turned blue and left my body, and the truth was, I went up into this tunnel of bright luminous light and there I was met by Jesus. We sat together and talked. I saw a gate; I don't remember what was said, but I had a clear knowing of the sentiment “My Child, if you go past this point you cannot go back. Child, you have my great work to do on Earth."

Life did not really get easier once I left London and took off traveling. I learned a lot of hard lessons--one thing I was certain of was that I never going back. I seemed to be an attractor field for the wounded. I found a sense of safety in danger. It was familiar.

The deepest healing of my life began after I woke up to the rude awakening that I married a man that was basically my father, yet it took me years to leave. Here comes the hand of God. I had a client at the time that mentioned that she had 2 tickets and a room to stay at a sold-out event at Omega Institute, because her friend had just cancelled. It was John of God. "Please come, there is no one else I would share a room with”.

Two days after returning from that event, I had a dream, and I met John of God. His words were like thunder, "go to Brazil and finish your work!"

I started studying at the Foundation for Spiritual Development at the time and Dana was instrumental in supporting me through gaining enough strength to leave the marriage. I left with one bag.

I ended up moving to Brazil for my healing and spiritual work. The search was over. I was exhausted and beat down.

I lived by and worked at the Casa for the next five years.

Today, I know the work of Jesus is being Love. Being open to receive was dangerous as a child and I am still learning how to heal that.