Everything Is Here to Help Me

 by Rev. Angelika Schafer

Dearest friends, 

I will share with you a part of a continuing divinely directed inner transformation. This is a very personal experience, may it inspire you in some way.

I was recently feeling troubled about what is happening on our planet and a very old thought/feeling that seems to have been present all my life arose from the depth of my being: “No one is here to help me”. (I did not experience a sense of safety as I grew up and felt utterly alone).

I went to my forest hermitage meditation hut and started looking into the eyes of my favorite image of Yeshua (which is quite alive). Many tears flowed as he kept directing me to stay with it fully, that pain in my heart, that existential loneliness, that core wound of separation, that perhaps most human beings experience deep down, even underneath all their trust and faith. It is a wound so painful, we would rather not touch on.

But Yeshua guided me to keep feeling, to let the heart be soft and undefended, to stay present to whatever arose, wanting to be seen and felt. Yes, it was difficult, but I stayed. After what seemed like an eternity, I began to notice a change in the original thought/feeling of no one is here to help me to: Everything is here to help me. These thoughts kept alternating for a while: No One…. Everything….. No One…. Everything…. Until both became neutral and equal, integrated into one. My old beliefs about life began to change into the alive knowing of this truth, now my truth: Everything is here to help me/us/humanity/earth, even the “horrible” things going on. This is a kind of trust I never knew before. Through this grace-filled process, it became alive and real for me. I am deeply grateful. And now I practice this when challenges come. Everything is here to help us.

And it doesn’t mean that we should not at times say NO in the outer world to what is not in alignment with truth and love, just as Yeshua dealt with the money changers in the temple, his NO was quite strong and clear. For me this body is my God made temple too, and how to care for it is between me and God! 

May we all have discernment and courage and at the same time the unshakable trust that even in the most extreme circumstances can say: Father forgive them, for they know not what they do (or who they are!) 

 

Blessed be….. Rev. Angelika Schafer